Recently I decided to read the Gospel of John in the Bible with fresh eyes. Basically this entails trying to forget I know any of the information contained therein and try to take it in like I’m reading it for the first time. I’m doing this in an effort to know Jesus more and differently than before.
In my quest to do this I came upon a verse in chapter one (Amplified version) that I had never seen before. It’s this one – verse 13, that I made a graphic of. I can’t believe I didn’t notice it before. When I came across it this time, it deeply spoke to me.
For a long time I’ve said that I feel like I was dropped out of heaven, not really of this world. Please don’t misunderstand, I’m not implying that I’m God or any type of god, or an angel. Certainly not. What I am saying is that I’ve never felt like I fit in here. A huge part of that is all the pieces that are still missing. I have very little information to speak of about my first two months of existence in the hospital and foster care. I have no photos of myself before three months of age. I have heard many adoptees say they have a hard time feeling like they truly exist because they don’t know where they came from or who they came from.
There are many unanswered questions, and my bio mother chose to go to the grave refusing to answer them.
So, I give God the credit for getting me here. He gets all the gratefulness.
Thank you, John 1:13. You rock.
I am born of God.
